Sunday, July 18, 2010

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Ownership

"Send out Your light and Your truth; let them guide me.  Let them lead me to Your Holy mountain, to the place where You live." - Psalm 43:3

The author is making a real request to God.  I feel like he's saying, "God, I want to know You and I want You in my life.  I want to be close to You, I want to do right by You.  Most of all, I want to feel Your love."

I feel that I'm at the cusp of growing up.  I am starting to realize that I really need to take ownership of my life and that I have to make life happen.  Living is not a passive process...existing is, but who wants to just exist?  Lately I've been thinking about who I am, who I want to be, what's important to me, and how all of those things need to somehow come together.  I am at the stage of my life where I need to lay the foundation for making my dreams into reality.  I need to start living my life - going on the trips I said I would, doing the things that make me happy, and being with the people I love.  (I guess this is what I think about during hot sleepless summer nights).  As I read this verse this morning, it really stuck out to me.   It reminded me yet again that I need to include God in all of these plans, or invite Him to guide me...As I look back and see where God has intervened, I've always reflected on what an incredible experience that was.  I am definitely excited to be alive right now and can't wait to see what God has in store for me.

My prayer is that I continue to take ownership of my life.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Unfailing Love

For the time being, I might be posting my daily worships/meditations/reflections...I've definitely grown a lot in the past 2 months, and maybe you might gain something from these too. This next week I'm going to be meditating on Psalms 42 & 43 (psalms of descendants of Korath) and I'll be sharing whatever my thoughts are that day.


"But each day the Lord pours His unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing His songs, praying to God who gives me life." - Psalm 42:8

This verse is in the middle of the author talking about being discouraged and depressed.  Definitely not happy, fun times for him.  But here, it seems like the author is acknowledging that God does love him, he just is having a hard time accepting that love, or maybe even seeing it.

As I spent some time thinking about this verse, I wondered how many times in a day God pours His love on me and I miss it...or I don't give Him the credit for it.  It's crazy to think that something so small and insignificant such as grabbing that last pint of my favorite ice cream at the grocery store could have been because God had maybe inspired/caused the delivery crew to accidently put in an extra pint, or the wrong flavor in with others...to something huge like protecting me from that crazy driver on the freeway that I never even saw or will ever know about.  Who knows how involved God is in our lives...that's probably going to be my first question when I get there.  I'd like to think He's really involved, it's comforting to know Someone's got my back....it would be neat to see just how much "back" He's truly got.

I challenge my 5th & 6th graders to look for God during the week and to share with us.  I realized that I am horrible at this...usually I come up with some cliche answer.  But this week my prayer is to have my eyes open to see some of the ways God pours His unfailing love on me each day.

Friday, July 2, 2010

back.

The past two months have been a blur!

Fun, but a blur!

After getting back from San Francisco, I did nothing but school...but it paid off!  Graduation was a blast.  And as soon as the festivities were over, my life was consumed by Vacation Bible School.  (One week of prep, another of actual chaos...2 weeks of 12 hour days 6/days a week!) And now, I'm finally getting a breather.  It feels like my first day off in a month.  (I guess that's what happens when you work for a church & go to school full-time)

And now, I get to enjoy the Holiday weekend.

I hope to be posting more regularly, as well as, putting up some pictures of the past few months!